Happy Birthday, Mother Teresa

August 26, 2010

Today is the 100th anniversary of the birth of Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta.

Blessed Mother Teresa, pray for us.

Below is the Collect for her feast.

Blessings,

Papa Z

O God,
who called blessed Teresa, virgin
to respond to the love of your Son thirsting on the cross
with outstanding charity to the poorest of the poor,
grant us, we beseech you, by her intercession,
to minister to Christ in his suffering brothers.

Through our Lord Jesus Christ your Son
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever.


And Now For Something Completely Different . . .

July 12, 2010

I wish that I could claim this one as my own!

As it is, a hat tip to WDTPRS and an unknown seminarian!


The Seminarian’s Song

To the Tune of the Major-General’s Song from The Pirates of Penzance

I am the very model of Catholic seminarian
I’ve information pastoral, canonical, and Marian,
I know the Popes of Avignon and Councils Ecumenical
From Nicaea to Vatican plus gatherings heretical.
I’m very well acquainted too with matters homiletical,
I’ll write a pretty sermon that is eloquent yet practical,
About soteriology I’m teeming with a lot o’ news…
Such as salvation history’s relation to the modern Jews.
I’m very open minded, I have Sunday lunch with Protestants,
I teach them our Church History and sing it in Gregorian Chants,
In short in matters pastoral, canonical, and Marian,
I am the very model of a Catholic seminarian.

I know my ancient languages, some Latin, Greek, and Hebrew too;
I’m smart as a Dominican, I write for The Thomist review,
I quote Thomas Aquinas and I know the Summa all by heart,
I know the arguments for God from Anselm to Rene Descartes;
I am an expert without doubt in all matters liturgical,
I’ll see the rubrics carried out in fashion demiurgical!
I can intone polyphony from every epoch, school and rank…
And sing all of the arias composed by Mister Cesare Franck.
Then I can run a bingo or a bake sale in the Parish Hall,
And sell spaghetti supper tickets at the local shopping mall:
In short, in matters pastoral, canonical, and Marian,
I am the very model of a Catholic seminarian.

In fact, when I know what is meant by “Molinist” and “Arian,”
When I can rise above the title of Popish sectarian,
When such affairs as wakes and confirmations I’m more wary at,
And when each sort of imperfection, sin, and fault I can combat;
When I have learnt the progress of von Balthasar’s theology,
Converted every member of the Church of Scientology—
In short, when I’ve a smattering of basic Catholicity—
They’ll say that I’m a cleric full of goodness and simplicity.
And though my Bishop is impressed by my enormous panurgy,
The man is rather wary at my love for Latin Liturgy,
But still in matters pastoral, canonical, and Marian,
I am the very model a Catholic seminarian.


A Man In Need Of Prayer

July 2, 2010

It has been widely reported that the extremely outspoken British atheist Christopher Hitchens has been diagnosed with cancer of the esophagus.

It occurs to me that the best thing the faith community can do is to pray for him — body, soul, and spirit with true concern and without malice.

Blessings,

Papa Z


The Dark Ages . . . not so “Dark”?

June 4, 2010

I was perusing “First Thoughts” — the blog of “First Things” magazine, and one of the recent posts drew my attention to an article by the Hugo Award-nominated Sci-Fi author Michael Flynn, writing for the Catholic journal “Dappled Things“.

The article was fascinating.  I quote from the opening paragraphs . . .

It is often said that until the Scientific Revolution Islam was far ahead of the Christian West in the natural sciences. This belief is a reaction to an earlier age of Western triumphalism that overlooked the genuine achievements of the Islamic philosopher (faylasuf); but like many reactionary movements, it overcompensates and praises a golden age that never quite was. Europe was never quite the dark age of ignorance that the “enlightened” philosophers pretended.

At the beginning of the Middle Ages, Islam was clearly the most scientifically advanced civilization on Earth, and China boasted a more advanced technology. Yet by the end of the Middle Ages the Latin West was clearly ahead of both Islam and China. How did this reversal of fortune take place? Joseph Needham called this ‘the Grand Question.’ [4]

There were two reasons: China never had an Aristotle; Islam never had an Aquinas. Consequently, logic, reason, and science in those cultures were like the seed that fell on barren ground, or among the weeds. In China, science withered; in Islam, it was choked out after a promising start.

Read the entire article here.

I’d love to see some discussion.


Is Going Through the Motions Bad?

May 28, 2010

I remember hearing a lot of grumbling growing up about Christians who “just go through the motions.” You had the good, “on fire” Christians, and those who just showed up and did the outward gestures. I was always left wondering who were the genuine Christians, and who were the fakers.

Before I begin, I should say that yes, there is certainly good reason to be suspicious of those who just go through the motions.  Jesus often criticized those who had the outward things perfected, while being unjust on the inside. Jesus also told us that our inward thoughts affect our outside actions, and as such said that lust is equivalent to adultery.

Of course, I agree with Jesus. Religious leaders and others who go through the motions, doing one thing, while telling others to do other things, is wrong and hypocritical. Additionally, what we think affects our actions.  Our thoughts themselves can be sinful just as our actions can be. I am not denying any of this.

However, I also think that going through the motions is not necessarily the worst thing that a non-believer or lukewarm believer can do (Mind you, I am *not* talking about receiving communion here, which when received unworthily is bad, very bad). Yes, ideally, every Christian believer should strongly believe in Jesus, and let this belief radiate out into his or her life. Of course, we know that this level of commitment is not always the norm in our parishes. So should we simply tell everybody who isn’t a strong believer to go home and stop coming to Mass? Should the person who has a moment of doubt not walk into a church until this is completely worked out? I would say “no,” and let me explain why.

While we know that our actions reflect our internet beliefs, I think it also holds true that our beliefs reflect our actions. The words we speak, and the actions we do, shape what we believe. Lex orandi, lex credendi, as the liturgical scholars tell us. What we say, what we do, what we sing, and what we pray form our internal beliefs.  Thus, the lukewarm Christian (or even non-Christian) who sings hymns, prays the liturgy, stands and kneels when appropriate, etc, is, even if in a minor way, forming his internal beliefs in a Christian way. The weekly repetition of words and gestures related to God, Jesus, love, mercy, peace, thanksgiving, etc, cannot not shape someone. I know of spouses of Catholics who “went through the motions” for years, even decades, until at one point they felt called to become Catholic.  I know of students who “went through the motions” for years until they became adults and openly and enthusiastically embraced the faith for themselves. Could the weekly barrage of Catholic words, gestures, and symbols have caused the changes? I would say, absolutely yes, with the help of God’s grace.

So, my opinion is that unless someone is being hypocritical while going through the motions, let him go through the motions. Let him come to Mass, say a few prayers, hear some Scripture, and go home. From our perspective, while not ideal, and certainly not the place where he should be forever,  isn’t this one of the best things a non-believer or lukewarm believer can do on a Sunday morning? Are we really going to fault somebody for going to church on a Sunday morning, given the numerous alternatives available? Trust me, there are a lot worse motions he could be going through than Christian ones.


Hail Thee, Festival Day

May 23, 2010

Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

Lo! in the likeness of fire,
on them that await his appearing,
he whom the Lord foretold,
suddenly, swiftly, descends.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

Forth from the Father he comes
with his sevenfold mystical dowry,
pouring on human souls
infinite riches of God.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

Hark! in a hundred tongues
Christ’s own, his chosen Apostles,
preach to a hundred tribes
Christ and his wonderful works.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

Praise to the Spirit of life,
all praise to the Fount of our being,
light that dost lighten all,
life that in all dost abide.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

God, who art giver of all
good gifts and lover of concord,
pour thy balm on our souls,
order our ways in thy peace.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

God Almighty, who fillest
the heaven, the earth and the ocean,
guard us from harm without,
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.

Kindle our lips with his live bright coal
from the hands of the Seraph;
shine in our minds with thy light;
burn in our hearts with thy love.
Refrain:
Hail thee, festival day!
Blest day that art hallowed forever;
day wherein God from heaven,
shone on the world with his grace.


Some Thoughts on Anglican to Catholic Conversions

May 11, 2010

I am a frequent reader (and occasionally comment) on the excellent blog “What Does The Prayer Really Say?” by Father John Zuhlsdorf. Fr. Zuhlsdorf is a strong proponent of “Say the Black, Do the Red” with regard to proper, reverent liturgy. I thoroughly enjoy reading his thoughts and commentaries. Over the last several year or so, with the continuing disintegration of the Church of England (and the Episcopal Church, here in the United States) Fr. Zuhlsdorf has authored quite a few posts on Anglicanism, and on Pope Benedict XVI, whom he rightly calls “The Pope of Christian Unity.” The comment stream by readers of his blog has been quite active both with lively participation by both cradle Catholics and Anglican converts to Catholicism.

I am bothered, however, by the tenor of some of the comments offered by some of the cradle Catholic participants who seem to feel the need to utterly degrade the entirety of the Anglican tradition, to question the motives of converts, and seem to be happy only when a convert abases himself in the mud on the banks of the Tiber, begging for admittance.

There are those who, regardless of the Pastoral Provision established by Pope John Paul II (the Great) and Anglicanorum Coetibus promulgated by Pope Benedict XVI (the Pope of Christian Unity) wish to have nothing to do with former Anglican clergy who become Catholic priests – to the point of refusing the Eucharist from such a priest (which more than smacks of the heresy of Donatism to me!)

There are those who wish to reject the notion that the history of Anglican tradition has anything at all to offer the Catholic Church, in spite of the Vatican’s actions to the contrary (for example, the promulgation of “The Book of Divine Worship.”) There are those who make broad pronouncements about the history and spirituality of Anglicanism who make generalizations out of complete ignorance, forgetting the patrimony of Lancelot Andrewes; of King Charles the Martyr; of the Tractarians; of the beautiful translations of St. Thomas Aquinas’ Eucharistic hymns (much better, I might add, than in your typical missalette!). And do we even want to compare the prose of the Book of Common Prayer to what ICEL has given us?

There are those who do not (or will not) understand that conversion is a journey, and that not everyone moves along that journey at the same speed. It took the (soon to be beatified) Venerable Servant of God John Henry, Cardinal Newman years to make his journey. Even GK Chesterton only made his conversion formal 14 years before he died.

There are those who do not (or will not) respect the fact that there have been well-reasoned arguments put forth by Anglo-Catholics which seem to justify separation from Rome, and that even when one realizes that an argument one once thought was valid truly is not, there is real pain and real grieving.

There are those who do not (or will not) respect the fact that many converts literally “leave everything behind” to follow Christ. Homes, salaries, churches, pensions, friends, etc. all become secondary considerations when one realizes that the fullness of Truth is to be found in Rome and not Canterbury.

To coin a phrase, all we ask for is a little respect. Don’t try to debate us on nuances of English history or on causes of the English Reformation. We know all that. (Indeed, I can lecture on the subject for hours without notes!) Don’t try to tell us that our entire ministries before our conversions were utterly without grace. They weren’t. Don’t try to lecture us on Apostolicae Curae. We accept it. We’re extremely familiar with the document – and realize (as Pope Leo XIII did at the time) that certain issues are not as “cut-and-dry” as they seem. Rejoice that we have come to embrace the fullness of Truth. And allow us a measure of dignity.

In the Acts of the Apostles, chapter 15, we read of the Council of Jerusalem. The burning question: did Gentile believers first have to become Jews in order to be saved. Some said yes – the entirety of the Law of Moses was absolutely necessary for salvation. But the Apostles said no – it was enough to avoid meat offered to idols, blood, the flesh of strangled animals, and sexual impurity. It seems to me that there is a correlation here. Pope John Paul II and Pope Benedict have spoken in their Apostolic capacity regarding conversions from the Anglican tradition. That should be enough for everyone. Further burdens are not necessary.

Blessings,

Papa Z.


Catholicism and Fundamentalism

May 10, 2010

I’m probably gonna get hammered for this post!

No, this is not a review of Karl Keating’s book of the same name – though if you are interested in my thoughts on the book, check out my review for Amazon.com!

What this IS, however, is some commentary on a trend I’ve begun to notice among a certain percentage of very conservative Catholics, and that is a trend toward what can only be described as a form of Catholic fundamentalism. Now please realize while fundamentalist Catholics are very conservative, not all conservative Catholics are fundamentalists. This is a very important distinction to make. This commentary is not intended as a rant against people who prefer the Extraordinary Form of the Mass (I’ve not attended one, but plan to, at my earliest convenience) nor those who watch EWTN (my wife and I not only watch, but appeared on “The Journey Home” a few years ago) or those who prefer more traditional music (count me in!) etc. I’m not referring to your typical, orthodox, Pope John Paul II Catholic.

When viewed on the spectrum of “liberal” to “conservative” your dear commentator would most certainly fall considerably to the “right” of “center”. From a theological standpoint, I’m probably more conservative than 80% of your typical “man in the pew”; and the same would certainly be true in my academic work as well.

What I am concerned about, however, are those on the very far right – the ones who brand you as an enemy (or worse, a heretic!) because you only agree with them 95% of the time! The ones who seem to think that faith means disengaging your brain, and that all development of doctrine ceased in the Middle Ages.

Some tendencies I’ve noticed which concern me:

• Geo-centrism – the notion that the earth is fixed and immovable, and that the universe revolves around it. (Based on a total misunderstanding of the Church’s “condemnation” of Galileo!)

• The absolute rejection of any and all critical tools in the interpretation of Scripture (and history!) After all, higher criticism was invented by liberal German Protestants who wanted to destroy the Church, therefore all critical tools must be avoided at all costs! (So much for the Church Fathers!)

• A literalist view of Scripture that would frighten an Independent Baptist! No allegory allowed! No figures of speech, either! (Example: The prophets teach that Jesus would ride into Jerusalem “on an ass, and on a donkey, the foal of an ass” – therefore on Palm Sunday, Jesus rode two animals! Yes, I’ve seen this vigorously debated!)

• An unhealthy obsession with Matthean Priority. Personally, the Synoptic Problem is not my problem – and is an unresolved – and unresolvable question. But, as the (faulty) reasoning goes, theologians who accept Markan priority obviously used critical tools to arrive that this conclusion – and all critical tools must be avoided at all costs! See above!

• An insistence that only the Douay-Rheims Bible can be used (and only certain editions of that!) if one is unfortunate enough not to be able to read the Latin Vulgate (and only certain editions of that!)

• A misunderstanding of the role of the Teaching Authority of the Church, leading to bizarre claims of “infallibility” on issues upon which the Church has never claimed infallibility!

In each of these cases, the problem seems to stem from an ultra-montane view of the Church, and by the taking out of context (both textually and historically) the role of, and meaning behind, Papal pronouncements. The gift of Papal Infallibility is to preserve the Church from teaching heresy in matters of faith and morals. It does not necessarily follow, however, that every proclamation by every Pope on every issue is a matter of faith and morals!

Now, is it true that many modern theologians have gone beyond (and even against) the Magisterium of the Church? Of course it is! Sadly, such dissent is common on a number of levels. But sadly, the Church has always had dissenters, and, as Christ teaches us, the wheat and the tares will continue to grow together until the End of the Age. But the way to deal with dissent and heresy is to promote good theology and orthodox doctrine – not to insist that the thinking process be shut down entirely. The Book of Proverbs teaches us that “iron sharpens iron”. What a blessing for the Church that the iron of St. Thomas Aquinas was sharpened on the iron of St. Bonaventure! What a blessing that Franciscans are not Dominicans who in turn are not Benedictines! What a blessing that some of the finest astronomers in the world have been (and still are) Jesuits!

It seems to this commentator that the extremes of the very far right are every bit as dangerous as the extremes of the very far left; both extremes leave the Church open to ridicule from Her enemies; and that neither serve to benefit Her primary mission, which is the eternal salvation of souls.

Blessings,

Papa Z.


New From Jonathan: Gratitude

May 5, 2010

From A Kairos Talk, the Eucharist, Mass, and Gratitude:

One of my biggest struggles as a religion teacher is with our technical terms. We have so many words that we use, sometimes every single day: Trinity, Eucharist, Heaven, Son of God, Mass, Incarnation, and so on.

This talk isn’t going to turn into class, I promise. But, I do hope you learn a lot. About the Eucharist, about God, and about yourselves. You may even learn a little bit about me, although that’s the least of my concerns.

How many of you know what the word Eucharist means? I’m thinking the technical definition now. What about Mass?

Eucharist means “thanksgiving” and Mass means “dismissal.” At first glance, these two definitions may not even make any sense. They may not even seem to describe what we do at all. But, yet I’m giving this talk around these two definitions. Bear with me. I hope in the end it all makes perfect sense.

First, I’ll tackle the Eucharist as thanksgiving and let you know a little about my faith journey in the process.

Most of you have been Catholic or, whatever your faith tradition is, from the moment of your birth. It’s just something that you’ve always done. I was raised Protestant. Most of the people were good hearted, but in general the whole experience was miles from Catholicism. I had no Catholics in my family. I lived in a county where Catholics were lower than 10% of the population. In my class, there was one Catholic girl. The closest I ever got to Catholicism was when I took a romantic interest in her.

Read it All


Celebrity Converts – Will They Stay or Will They Go?

May 4, 2010

I will admit that I have had little time – or desire – to be active on the blog world as of late, whether reading or posting. I suppose this is because my life is very active, as I happily take on more responsibilities at work. I also have become a bit agitated with the nitpicking nature of some blogs, but alas that is another post. I have also been enjoying reading more as of late, so I can be found curled up with a good book more often than I feel like being on the computer.

Nonetheless, I read a few days ago that Daniel Herzog, cradle-Catholic turned conservative Episcopal bishop turned Catholic is now back to being Episcopalian again. In the past, I probably would have been disappointed to lose one of our “celebrity” converts, but these days, it really doesn’t bother me. This is not to say I don’t want more solid Anglicans to join our fold (after all, they usually bring great music, worship, and education with them), it is just that I am no longer into the “we can produce more celebrity converts than you” mentality. The Church will survive whether the Daniel Herzogs, the Scott Hahns, or even the lowly David Bennetts decide to leave (not that Scott Hahn or I have any intention or leaving; it is just that the Church will survive if we do). We have plenty of hard-working, pious, saints in our midst who just do Christ’s work for others without the press or blogosphere getting worked up about it. I wish Herzog well, I really do, but honestly, I am not that concerned if somehow our “celebrity convert factor” has been reduced.


CS Lewis and “That Hideous Strength”

April 12, 2010

One of my favorite novels is That Hideous Strength by CS Lewis. I’ve even used it as a textbook in a couple of college-level theology classes.

I suspect that many of the readers of this blog are also familiar with the book.

I want to pose a question to those readers — and this next statement is a spoiler for anyone who has not read the book.

Who succeeded Dr. Elwin Ransom Fisher-King as the Pendragon? We’re told toward the very end of the book that he was the latest in a long line spanning many, many centuries — and that his successor would be revealed. Yet Lewis closes the novel without a successor being named.

If you’ve read the novel, I’d really like your opinion on this! Who was the successor — and why did you choose this character?

Blessings,

Papa Z


HE IS RISEN!!!

April 4, 2010

V. Alleluia, Christ is Risen!
R. The LORD is Risen Indeed! Alleluia!


St. Joseph, Pray For Us!

March 19, 2010

As regular readers of mine are probably aware, I am not a member of either major political party. Indeed, I am not a member of any political party at all; having made that decision when I was first ordained priest in the CEC in 1998. I took this stand (after many years of pondering a similar decision by a Catholic priest friend) because I wanted to be able to stand for or against specific issues without being accused of being part of the agenda of a political party. Even after my conversion to the Catholic Church, I have maintained my position, even though this position no doubt frustrates friends of mine on both sides of the political aisle!

I am also not in favor of the idea that all politicians whose private lives or public votes are not in accord with their professed religious faith should automatically be excommunicated. Again, this position would no doubt frustrate friends of mine on various points of the religious spectrum! This is fine by me!

To my mind, excommunication is a tool used most effectively when it is used rarely — but when it IS used, is used to good and deliberate effect. Overused (or even over-threatened) it loses any effectiveness it might have AS a tool, both to save the soul of the excommunicate, and to take a strong public stand.

Having said all this, I would like to propose a worthy candidate for public excommunication in the Catholic Church — namely, the Speaker of the House of Representatives, Nancy Pelosi. She has publicly and unrepentantly deliberately mis-stated the teachings of the Church on life issues; she has publicly and unrepentantly defied her own bishop, and now, for me anyhow, the last straw.

The Speaker, today, on this, the Solemnity of St. Joseph, publicly prayed to the foster-father of Our Lord, that the current version of the health-care legislation be passed. (Hat tip to American Papist!)

Please don’t get me wrong. I’m not attacking health-care reform, nor are the Catholic bishops. The United States Conference of Catholic Bishops, long a supporter of real heath-care reform, have also come out strongly against the current version of the health-care legislation.

But, in this case, some extremely basic concerns about the current version of the legislation are not only being addressed, they are being ignored, and those raising those concerns are being marginalized — at best.

It seems to me, that a public statement by the Bishops supporting substantive health-care reform, while making it clear that the Speaker’s action — publicly praying to St. Joseph for support for a bill which would, in many respects, make a mockery of authentic Catholic social teaching — is unacceptable; even blasphemous to the point of placing her outside the Graces of the Church would be entirely appropriate!

Papa Z.


Holy Men and Women of God, Inspire me this Lent

March 10, 2010

It is unfortunate that, during this holy season of penance and conversion, the faithful would find occasion to feel more out of place than normal during the Holy Sacrifice due to poor liturgical practice.  Sadly, I can say that I have felt this way myself already multiple times since the beginning of Lent, due in large part to the lackluster quality (musically and in content) of the songs which are performed for our “entertainment”.  Take, for example, exhibit “A” – “Change Our Hearts” by Rory Cooney:

Change our hearts this time,
your word says it can be.
Change our minds this time,
your life could make us free.
We are the people your call set apart,
Lord, this time change our hearts.

(I could not handle typing more than the refrain.)

If I were as poorly catechized as many of the people in the pews of our church appear to be, I would think that this song is telling God that His work “last time” just wasn’t enough to change our hearts.  Maybe “this time”, God, you’ll do better.  As they say, if at first You don’t succeed…

Also, I would be tempted by this song to think that it is God’s responsibility to change my mind.  Maybe I don’t really have control over my thoughts…maybe the things I do are really not my fault.  Good, I can continue blaming Someone Else for my failures (I won’t say “sins” through fear that I may offend myself).

Who the heck is Rory Cooney, anyways?  Apparently anybody can write liturgical music these days.  Of course, being published by OCP or GIA or some such music brand ensures that Rory and other profound song writers will be preferred to those holy men and women who actually wrote inspired and sacred hymns.  Like St. Gregory the Great, for example.  Oh, you didn’t know that he wrote hymns?  How could you, since we never sing them!

I realize that you may have serious doubts that the likes of St. Gregory the Great could write such inspiring, meaningful and popular hymn as Rory & Co.  However, I assure you, you will be pleasantly surprised.  Take, then, exhibit “B” – “Ex more docti mystico”, written by the aforementioned holy Pontiff and generously and beautifully translated by J. M. Neale (1818-1866):

The fast, as taught by holy lore,
we keep in solemn course once more:
the fast to all men known, and bound
in forty days of yearly round.

The law and seers that were of old
in divers ways this Lent foretold,
which Christ, all seasons’ King and guide,
in after ages sanctified.

More sparing therefore let us make
the words we speak, the food we take,
our sleep and mirth, and closer barred
be every sense in holy guard:

Avoid the evil thoughts that roll
like waters o’er the heedless soul;
nor let the foe occasion find
our souls in slavery to bind.

In prayer together let us fall,
and cry for mercy, one and all,
and weep before the Judge’s feet,
and His avenging wrath entreat.

Thy grace have we offended sore,
by sins, O God, which we deplore;
but pour upon us from on high,
O pardoning One, Thy clemency.

Remember Thou, though frail we be,
that yet Thine handiwork are we;
nor let the honor of Thy Name
be by another put to shame.

Forgive the sin that we have wrought;
increase the good that we have sought:
that we at length, our wanderings o’er,
may please Thee here and evermore.

Blest Three in One, and One in Three,
Almighty God, we pray to Thee,
that this our fast of forty days
may work our profit and Thy praise. Amen.

Need more be said?


A Lenten Reflection

February 18, 2010

“Remember O man that thou art dust, and unto dust thou shalt return.”

December 31, 2007

As I sit here at my computer, my aunt is on her deathbed. Due to strong medications, she may not technically be “suffering” pain, but she is, without a doubt, suffering. A few days ago, we sat her up at the edge of the bed. It took three people to do so. She is just like a baby, where her head needs to be cradled, her back propped up, her legs moved by another’s strength. She could only take tiny sips of water, as swallowing is increasingly difficult. She is a skeleton of her former self. As she awaited her next sip, her head slumped forward. When she looked up again, her eyes were watery. I asked, “Are you crying?” She nodded yes. Perhaps she saw herself in the large mirrored cabinet doors. Maybe she couldn’t believe it had come to this. I can’t really know for sure what caused the tears because she’s beyond the point where she can talk.

Last week when I saw her, and she had a bit more speaking ability, she kept repeating, “I don’t know how Lucy did it.” Lucy, her sister (and my mother), also was quite weak at the end, spending her last days also in a morphine-induced haze. I told her, “You know, I”m here, and I love you, but in a sense, you are going through this alone, because no one else can possibly understand what you’re experiencing right now.” She nodded. I hope she found some comfort in the fact that her sister had walked this road before her, and so, in a way, someone DID understand.

Several times, she has indicated that, “I’m going to die today” or “I’m going to die tomorrow.” When my sister Donna and I told her on Saturday we had to leave that day, she repeated it again. We talked with her a bit, and then she seemed to be distressed. She closed her eyes, and her brow got very furrowed, and her head seemed to vibrate a little. It seeemed as though she was trying with all her might to make herself die. It didn’t work.

Well, here we are Monday morning, and it’s New Year’s Eve. I haven’t made a call up this morning to my uncle, but my guess is she’s still here with us. It has been an inestimable privilege to walk alongside her at this time, for I believe that through suffering, one can find treasures of wisdom and insight to be mined, and, most of all, God himself is most present. We often don’t see it at the time, but afterwards, the picture becomes more clear.

Our model, our rallying point, is a wooden cross upon which the bloody, broken God-man suffered and died for “the joy set before Him.” We must look soberly to the cross of Christ without fear and see that it is only through taking up our own crosses that we reach our final hope, which is eternal life and happiness in the presence of the Triune God, all the angels and archangels, and every one of his children, the saints.